“You showed me how graduate school had somehow transformed me from a smart confident 24 yr old to a self-doubting anti-social 30 yr old. You alerted this frog that he had been boiled, as it were. Even more than the edited documents, I want to thank you for giving me tools to self-reflexively assesses my deteriorated situation and then do something about it” – Academic client (Anthropology) who went post-ac and never looked back
I completely support and endorse leaving academia. I left academia.
It may not be apparent on this site, but if you are struggling with a desire to get out of academia, I support you, and will help you with that. I left academia AFTER being successful and getting tenure. I know why you want to leave. And I’ll help you deal with the emotions, the feelings of failure, and get past them, and get a plan.*
What I do not endorse is telling anyone to give up their dreams just because their dreams are difficult/close to impossible to accomplish.
Achieving financial, emotional AND intellectual well being in academia is hard to the point of being, frankly, impossible for many. You’re not going to get there without massive, simply massive logistical advance planning and preparation, and ongoing strategizing, and realistic goals, and a strong ethic of self-care and self-protection. And even with those, you might “fail” to complete the Ph.D., get the tenure track job, get tenure, or sustain a career that is joyful and life-affirming.
And this is not your fault. There aren’t enough jobs, and there are fewer every year. There isn’t enough funding, and there’s less every year. Graduate Student debt is astronomical. The payscale for assistant professors is shameful. And the culture of higher ed is increasingly soulless.
However. I support dreams. If your dream is to have an academic career, then I’m here to help. If a visually impaired person asked me for advice about climbing Everest, I wouldn’t say “You can’t.” I’d say, “ok, do you have a guide? Legible maps? Do you have adequate funds? If not, do you know where to find them? Do you have a backup plan? Do you know the dangers? Are you in fit condition? Have you spoken to others who have done it? Do they encourage you?” If not, I’d tell them, “you’re not ready now; come back when you are and let’s make it happen.” And then I’d wish them well on their journey.
And then if they didn’t make it, that would be ok. Plans shift. Circumstances change. Life values evolve.
Academic careers are the same. What starts out as an inspired quest for new knowledge and social impact can devolve into endless days in an airless room, broke, in debt, staring at a computer, exploited by departments, dismissed by professors, ignored by colleagues, disrespected by students.
It is ok to decide that’s not what you want. It is ok to make another choice. There is life outside of academia. But academia is a kind of cult, and deviation from the normative values of the group is not permitted or accepted within its walls. You will be judged harshly by others and, to the extent you’ve been properly socialized into the cult during graduate school, by your own inner voices. Making the decision to leave involves confronting that judgment, working through it, and coming out the other side. It is long and hard and involves confronting profound shame. I went through this. I know.
So, quit if it is what you truly want, and blessings upon your head. Either way, proceed armed not with self-delusion and blind hope, but with knowledge and a plan.