Kel here again:
Last week I challenged you to take a look at your internal and external definitions of success. We named the tension between what feels aligned and what is legible to systems. This week I invite you into the place where that tension drains your energy. (Sounds fun, huh?)
Motivation dies when outcomes are out of your control.
Not because you are weak or you lack discipline, but because your nervous system is designed to respond to effort that leads somewhere predictable. Another way of thinking about it is that your brain is designed to solve small problems. No visible solution? No motivation.
Human beings are remarkably capable of sustained effort when there is a clear connection between action and result. If I study, I learn. If I practice, I improve. If I write, I produce words on a page. The feedback loop is visible. Effort makes sense.
But much of life in the current hellscape, especially in academia and creative work, depends on outcomes you cannot control.
You can write the article. You cannot control the reviewers.
You can submit the grant. You cannot control the funding priorities.
You can apply for the job. You cannot control the committee.
You can build the program. You cannot control institutional cuts.
When your definition of success rests primarily on these external outcomes, motivation becomes unstable. You are pouring energy into processes where the final result is determined by variables that have nothing to do with your effort, skill, or integrity.
You are very smart. Whether you have notice or not, you have been learning that payoff is inconsistent.
You have certainly noticed that you can do everything right and still lose. And even if you have been ignoring it by placing the blame on yourself instead of the system, your brain has notice that the goalposts keep moving. And quietly, without drama, it begins to conserve energy.
What looks like procrastination is often a rational response to a broken feedback loop.
If you tell yourself that the only meaningful success is acceptance, tenure, funding, promotion, or public recognition, then most of your work exists in a suspended state. You do the labor, but the validation is uncertain at best and more often than not, withheld. There is no guaranteed completion point, no reliable reward.
Your brain simply does not thrive in that environment.
This is why motivation spikes briefly around deadlines and then collapses again. Deadlines create temporary clarity. They reintroduce a short term feedback loop. Submit by Friday. Finish by the end of the month. Those are contained outcomes. The larger result, however, remains uncertain.
When people say they are burned out, what they often mean is that they are exhausted from investing energy in outcomes they cannot influence.
This is just about the point where I would expect a bit of despair. The human version of that wailing emoji or the gif of the kid lying in the puddle kicking and screaming. I get it. But the reality is that most of us cannot simply opt out.
What we can do is relocate where we place our sense of completion. (I understand that this comes off as annoying productivity speak, but it is actually a valuable exercise.)
While you cannot control whether a journal accepts your article, you can control whether you wrote the clearest version you were capable of at this stage. You cannot control whether you receive tenure, BUT you can control whether you met the stated requirements and made choices aligned with your values. You cannot control whether an institution recognizes your labor. (Seriously stop trying!) You can control whether you define the labor as complete when you have fulfilled your side of the agreement.
When motivation is tied only to uncontrollable outcomes, it becomes fragile. When it is tied to controllable processes, it becomes steadier.
This is not about lowering standards or pretending results do not matter. Results have real consequences. Funding changes what is possible. Jobs affect stability. Recognition opens doors. It would be naive to say otherwise.
The shift is more subtle.
It is about refusing to measure your effort solely by outcomes you do not command. It is about defining internal markers of completion that are within your authority. Did you show up? Did you meet your defined version of done? Did you act in alignment with your current definition of success?
Those are answers you can access immediately. They close loops rather than leaving them perpetually open.
There is also a political dimension here. Systems that rely on scarcity and competition benefit when you tie your self worth to unpredictable outcomes. If you are always waiting to see whether you have been chosen, you are easier to manage. Your motivation becomes dependent on approval.
Reclaiming process based completion is not disengagement. It is stabilizing your relationship to effort.
When you finish a draft and declare it complete according to the criteria you set, something settles. When you submit and consciously release the outcome, something steadies. You move from endless anticipation to defined action.
This does not eliminate disappointment. Rejection still stings. BUT your motivation no longer depends entirely on forces outside your control.
So, if you have noticed your energy fading around certain projects, ask yourself where you have placed the finish line. Is it located in someone else’s decision? Is it contingent on institutional approval? Is it dependent on market response?
If so, your body may be protecting you from investing more in a loop that offers no reliable return.
The work now is to redraw the line to define what completion means on your side.
One more thing: This is an ongoing process. Once you complete that thing on your side of the line and acknowledge that you did it (Yes, acknowledgement matters!) you need to consciously decide whether you want to reenter the next uncontrollable phase.
At the risk of repeating myself and with the pedagogical knowledge that restatement can improve understanding, AKA once again for those of you in the back: Motivation is not a moral quality. It is a response to conditions. When conditions repeatedly disconnect effort from outcome, motivation dims. Your job is not to force it back through willpower. Your job is to rebuild conditions where your effort has meaning and a finish line you can actually reach.


I look forward to these every week. These have been extremely helpful. Thank you.
Thanks for letting me know. Writing blog posts are a little bit like talking into the void!
I am an academic in Hungary. A bummer, but the experience is, I think, shared by many who live and work elsewhere. I have the impression that there are two processes running parallel in academia. 1) Setting requirements and, simultaneously, 2) creating obstacles that prevent us in meeting those requirements. Exhaustion and hopelessness set in. This is how we are always under control, kept busy and silent.
Thank you Kel. I needed to read this today.
Happy to help!
Thank you, Kel, this is really needed for folks in academia
Super helpful: “[Y]our brain has noticed that the goalposts keep moving. And quietly, without drama, it begins to conserve energy. What looks like procrastination is often a rational response to a broken feedback loop.”
Thank you for the gems in each weekly post.